Resolved:
-I am too young to be this anxious about my career.
-By helping powerful attorneys screw over helpless innocents, I am only reinforcing my commitment to the non-profit sector, and am anyways accruing a massive karma debt that can only be relieved by do-goodering in the future.
-everything happens for a reason, and I can choose to believe this for the moment even though I really believe it is complete hogwash and a mantra only repeated by losers to make themselves feel better.
-Unstimulating job leaves more time for me to work on my novel.
-Reminder to self: start writing a novel.